Archive for February 2010
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| art by karen k soon (me) Ellana Xaara and Scoti |
(so not kwin)
dream had valentines day 2010
video rereading it in 2012 i cried ^ my dream journal notes
rewritten 2018;
(had it before I knew who she was) The first time i dreamt of rihanna i didn’t know who she was… it was literally on a valentines day. .in awake life! the day before, i asked to have a dream of my true one and only ….to connect with me. cause i felt so very lonely… and in the dream it was a sex dream i pleased a girl and it felt right i didn’t see her work on my body but i knew that was way best sex ever still…the non dream background story at the time no offense no grudge….at the time my gf was a different girl than the girl in the dream…. this was in middle school as a preteen when the dream happened. .(wait i think it was 20 l 0 actually rereading this sophomore in highschool i still had long hair so i got mixed up so) anyways i used to feel unworthy of being sexuallly worked with all my lovers on so i did all the work a lot of the time but under my first gf on earth even though one of my fave spots i felt really bad cause i can tell the girl wasn’t really in love with me i was like is this all im worth in my head i felt like i wanted to work for love but i was very sad…its not the girls fault but my head made up many problems bein negative…anyways point is even though i only worked on the girl in the dream….i felt way more amazed i wasn’t depressed she told me i did a very great job and she was so different than my eX now….but I didn’t feel bad is the point when this girl rihanna has sex with me in dreams i feel best ever than anyone ever gave different girls in my dreams 1 would try to have sex but it was always nightmares with other girls…or women i feel best ever than anyone ever gave different girls in my dreams ad real life i would try to have sex but
it was always nightmares with other girls…or women i feel best ever than anyone ever gave different girls in my dreams ad real life i would try to have sex but it was always nightmares with other girls. . .or women or men i felt like sex was a scary nightmare. . . .pointing to rihanna as the best sex ever always ….. when i eventually first time i pleased myself i realized the orgasms energy felt like a specific girl energy or vibe and i was so scared when it stopped it was like she left that’s why i was scared i didn’t want her to go so getting back to this dream the first red head dream i knew she had red hair and she looked like her mm with
the way you lie video YouTube Video;
like gaara….one of my most fave styles when i forgot what she looked like thought she was my gf then they had similar sized legs she freaked out and turned into a black figure 1 was scared at how she looked like a shadow but i saw she wasn’t attacking me so i saw her cry and i rubbed her back to cheer up.
when i woke up i thought to fear?
..that worst what if she was dead on the spirit side and that i’d never get to have my only one that’s best for me on Earth in this life…. oh in that dream i was lookin like gaara | too but i was a boy version
lol she said it was 4th dimension
